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Monday, August 10, 2009
im back witout a mouse again.. great! fail project tel the teacher wut? 'my mom took the mouse away so i couldnt use the pc' they believe me i laugh man! life for me has sucked ever since i can rmb.. ages 1-2 dnt rmb shit.. ages 3-12 here is wher the shit in my life happend.. and y i am the way i am today.. during those 9yrs of my young life wher my brain is stil a sponge.. i was bullied til no end.. everytime i went back to ah gong house..in KT my cuzins would always b there.. their not that much older then me.. they bullied me alot.. i was small.wtf can i do about it? cry..sure..but dat dnt do shit for ya.. everytime i get bullied i tel my parents..duh.. normally i go running screaming n crying all at the same time== i tel them wut happend n who did it.. they jz say 'its ok dnt cry' n to my cuzins in hok kien 'dnt bully him la' then for the rest of that day.. they dnt do anything..n so the bullying stops for the time being.. 'dnt bully him' thats all they do.. sure they might b family.. BUT IM YOUR FREAKING SON! ppl say kids cnt think for them self blah blah all that shit.. think again dumbass! i was 6 n i knew wut was happening.. i rmb everything my cuzins did to me.. why? not for revenge.. its cuz all my parents did was say 'dnt bully him' and let them off.. hw can u jz do that.. i was freaking crying n screaming at the top of my lungs! there was one time wher one of my cuzins shot me close to my eye lyk right next to the eye ball! wit a motherfucking bb gun! wut happen to him? sure he was told off n smacked..dats nt much for a 16yr old.. or however old he was.. wut happend to me?? i was lying down screaming crying at the freaking top of my lungs it went on pretty long..i guess y am i mad at my parents? or any other family member that was old.. lyk aunty uncle.. they dnt do shit! sure u cnt stop thta..kids wil b kids.. but this happens on a daily basis.. n frm wut i noe..it onli happens to me.. and y am i the way i am today? hw was my personality built up? why do i do the things i do? why do i hate the people i hate? why wnt i 4give those ppl? its because nuthin was done about it.. sure revenge is nt the way to go.. n im nt trying to get revenge.. i jz hate them for life.. even today..after 6yrs.. that grudge continues to live inside me.. it wnt ever go away.. u cnt atone for the sins hv done to me.. i rmb everything u do.. u anoy me..i anoy u more u piss me off..i hurt u u hurt me..i kill u CY |
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