|
I blog about
things that matter to me
|
|
 Profile
— Extremely Asian and Incredibly Different — Extremely Weird and Incredibly Spontaneous — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Hyper — Extremely Dangerous and Incredibly Explosive Chat
Exits
YannChien Ser RuiShen Wenn WeiJian Jolynn AunChian HuiHoon Joanne AiPeng WenXin Rin Mason HinYaw&XiaoLung Music Archives
Credits
©CY. |
Saturday, July 4, 2009
i was jz reminded of sumthing.... the lost of sum1.. my dad.. he passed away not long ago.. at the beginning of this year... i hated n love him at the same time.. wut can u do? hes ur dad== i kept on thinking to myself that he was goin to get better... i would never go to the hospital.. i guess i was jz scared... i went in the end... he was still fine the few weeks i went...i was on yr end holz..so yea.. mom was veri bz..rushing back home n to the hospital again.. spending most of her time at the hospital.. soon later my uncle came..dads younger brother.. in that short time..alot of relatives came XD my 2nd aunt+husband+their kids(30+)and their kids.. 3rd aunt+husband+their kids(30+)..5th aunt+husband+their kids(30+) my dads friends..work friends.. then my sister came back from canada.. wher she hd gone for uni..shed been ther for bout 2months.. the last few days b4 he passed away.. my mom..me..n my sis..spent the whole day there.. we didnt noe he was goin so fast.. on the day he passed away.. i walked into the room around 9ish i think.. i picked up that little clipboard n read it... his blood pressure had been getting lower n lower n lower.. i wasnt reli thinking much about that..so i put the clipboard back.. then my cuzins came..we talked.. whn lucnh time came..there was about6 or 7 ppl ther including mom me n sis... mom went out to lunch wit my cuzins.. me sis n one cuzin were in the room... we were talking..laughing.. dad was sleeping..he was making these loud breathing noises.. that whole time..my head went..dad has difficulty breathing n hahhaha cuz i was talking to my cuzin.. bout 20mins passed since then.. my cuzin went.. 'hey did ur dad sleep? theres no sound...' the breathing noise has stopped.. all 3 of us werent sure of wut to do.. i went over to check his pulse.... .........there was no pulse.. i ran out to the counter unsure of wut to do.. told the nurse.. 'umm..my dad has no pulse..' she gt that heart pulse thingy that goes beep beep.. i always wondered y didnt they attach that to dad in the first place... there was a weak pulse..i thought dad was stil ok... my mind was blank... i called mum.. 'ma..dads gt no pulse' 'HA!? okok im on my way back!'(in a paniky voice) her order jz arrived..n didnt even had time to eat..ran back to the hospital.. at that time..dads college friend n his family gt to the hospital... mom gt back..den the doctor arrived.. 5mins later.. she anouced dads death... mom was the first one to cry.. den suddenly tears ran down my face... haha..i didnt noe y.. i hated him..y did i cry? mayb bcuz...i also loved him.. he is my dad after all... phns started ringing.. we were calling every1 in KL that we knew.. the whole hall way were friends n family members.. the room was quite small so most of us were outside.. witin that day.. dad was sent back to his home town.. kuala terengganu.. b4 he passed away..he told us he wanted to be burried at his hometown... so thats wut we did... i spent 3 sleepless nites..burning paper..lighting candles..praying.... since me n my sis were the onli kids..it was pretty boring.. since onli the kids could do that... .... even now... i barely think of him... im nt sure if i think its too painful.. or i jz dnt want that flying around me.. i hv been alittle uptight lately.. due to this(i think) getting angry veri easily.. listening to friends in skol talking bout where they're goin on holz.. where their parents r taking them.. i dnt even noe y i get angry.. or atleast alittle agitated.. guess it was jz me.. haha.. ironicly.. the one u hate the most.. is also the one u love the most.. Hong Wey Kong 49 January 3 12:30pm CY WE LOVE YOU & MISS YOU |
|
and those around me |
|